Memories. One word which has many definitions when it comes to our every single moment in this life ever since we were born. The memories that have etched inside our mind, the good and the bad.
Unfortunately, human beings tend to remember more of those memories that wish to be forgotten rather than the good memories that is best to be remembered?  And sometimes, we end up thinking that our life revolves around the bad memories and nothing more.
“Every time you relive it, it’s like he’s doing it again and again. But it’s not even him anymore – it’s you. Now you’re the one making yourself his victim.”
“Oh, so I should just forget it?”
“No, don’t ever forget it. But you have to process it and move on. Live your life, otherwise he took your future away from you, too.”
 I guess everyone has certain memories. Some have more than another. We all are just trying to not let it control too much into our life. I hope everyone in this world is persevering and to never give up. May our life are filled with more good memories that give us happiness, joy and a reminder for us to stay alive always.




2017 has been a rough start. And it’s merely five days into the new year. Please be good with me. Please give me the patience to go through the challenges in my life. I wish to pick up the pieces of me that have fallen, rather than breaking more pieces of me. Dear Almighty, please guide me, heal me, as well as those around me. I do not wish to keep reliving those bad memories and wish to really let it go. 

Learn to let go

2017 resolution is to learn to let go. 

I am not obliged to do something for them. I am not responsible to clean up others’ mess. I should always remember to take care of my well-being. Set boundaries with yourself and others. Even if they are blood related. Be reminded, constantly, that sometimes.. some are not worth your energy and time. Be kind to everyone regardless, but most importantly, & be kind to yourself. Be a main character in your own life story.


It’s been a while since I long written. Now, I’m reading what I have written and pondering the very reason why I actually started writing here. With the quote written above, “Don’t rush anything. When the time is right, it will happen.” With all the things that have been happening, part of me seems speechless and the other part of me just feels grateful.

How would you have ever imagined yourself to be able to be who you are right now? 

Once in a while, it is nice to feel that you are actually growing despite the mundane life you have. 

All of you have grown, step by step, one at a time. It would mean nothing much to the world, but every single moment of the opportunities given to you are very much worthwhile. For someone who is especially a constant worrier, the risk you took from accepting any opportunities is basically just nerve wrecking.

Things will never be easy, considering every risk you took seems like you’re stepping into a thunderstorm.

A thunderstorm within a thunderstorm.

Uncertainties then started swirling around your head, when you suddenly realized that it is not just a mere thunderstorm. Trying to survive and live under those conditions was never easy. 

But despite the thunderstorm, here you are, coming out alive. More alive than ever.

Handle with care.


Your heart is like a glass.
So beautiful yet so fragile.
“Please handle it with care.”
But nevertheless,
You will get hurt,
Even if you never expect to.
Your heart will shatter into pieces,
Just like a glass.
Regardless of your efforts,
It will happened.
With all those broken pieces,
Please don’t forget this.
Don’t ever leave them broken.
Remember this:
Pick up your own broken pieces and seal it back.
No one will be able to pick up for you until you wish to pick it up yourself.
Your heart is like a glass,
So beautiful yet so fragile.
Always remember to take care of yourself.

From all the signs I’ve been telling you,
You never take me seriously, didn’t you?
Please be real with me.
Is that too hard to be genuine?
I don’t know what is real, coming from you.
I feel betrayed, that is all I have to say to you.